dear self,

just for posterity, this is what your schedule looked like fall quarter 2015.

monday:
9.30am - 11am: class
2pm - 3pm: standing meeting with supervisor
4pm - 5pm: therapy

tuesday:
9.30am - 12.30pm: therapy (yay for back to back to back clients!)
2.30pm - 3pm: diagnostics testing
4pm - 5pm: therapy
6pm - 7.30pm: class

wednesday:9.30am ( Read more... )

it's been a rough couple of weeks emotionally. after almost a solid year of being jerked around and letting it happen, of ups and downs and what the fucks and why is shes, of ridiculousness like this, it's been made very clear to me that i no longer exist to her. that me and my friendship mean so little that the prospect of us never talking again ( Read more... )

i don't know if it's me, but this is my second client who's pretty much up and vanished on me midway through a quarter (and i've only had three clients, so it's not a great score). i really hope he comes back. i was just starting to get into it, to figure out what to do and how best to do it, and i think we could make amazing progress together. he ( Read more... )

feeling inexplicably grateful tonight. i was just watching the rewrite, and it's somehow terrible and charming all at once, as most hugh grant movies are wont to be, and jk simmons played a principal who got all weepy every time he started talking about his family. which was so gimmicky, and made me roll my eyes every time they trotted it out, but ( Read more... )

just before i got here, i told my dad that i was pretty sure it was going to fuck me up. not necessarily in a bad way, just -- i am both the most obstinate person i know and the most easily influenced, which makes for the worst, most unproductive kind of dichotomy. even when i think the other side of the argument is completely ridiculous, i get it ( Read more... )

okay. deep breath. reliving this experience is going to be pretty painful, but i'm tempering it with shopping sprees and disneyland, so hopefully that will even the score out. early wednesday morning we headed out to the livermore outlet mall, prepped for a couple of hours of bargain hunting. how wrong we were. my aunt is the best kind of person to ( Read more... )

i just got waitlisted for rush university, which was basically my back up school and also the lowest-ranked school on the (on hindsight, too short) list of schools i applied for ( Read more... )

a couple of nights back, i was invited to attend a church mass-slash-concert type thing; it's still a toss-up whether i was more surprised than my cousin when i said yes. (maybe it shouldn't have been that surprising, considering i spent 10 years of my life studying in a convent (and very much loving my time there)). sometimes i miss singing hymns ( Read more... )